Category Archives: Uncategorized

password therapy


 

can you hear me now

can you hear me now

 

Pass Word this Pass word that

Pass It all around this and that

Password out, Password in

This is not the Hokey Pokey

I’m singin’

 

Too many ways to Pass

Scramble words from the last

Make my brain recover please

Just one password is all I need

 

Write it down, lose it fast

Where the hell is that password at

Can’t get in try to reset

Damn those websites give their regrets

 

Tap my toes twiddle my fingers

Not in the mood to wait and linger

For that password to find it’s reset

Waste my time in my forget

 

I’m just about to pass this out

Word security that leaves me out

Pass this you frickin’ word

I’ve had enough you assterd

 

Leave a Comment

Filed under Uncategorized

HABITS… haibun/haiku


TIME ON IT'S HEAD

Habits…Those ritualistic mind sets that give daily life meaning, and move you from one thing to the next.    Those things we do every morning, every evening, in repeat cause it’s what we know, it’s what we do.  Habits give comfort, they give order, they give meaning, and reason:  make the coffee, feed the pets, check the email, write the blog, sippy the coffee, write some more, surf the news, write some more.  Mostly in that order.  and yours?

Habits give distraction, move the mind to mindless, give repeat to avoidance, to unspoken fears, or maybe they started so long ago that they are infused in the body and to break the ritual is a death of sorts; a great loss to your systems that spike the fear of what will you do without them.  What could possibly take their place?

Maybe, someone passed their rituals on to you’ the methodical repeat of their own habits and ceremonies, and you made them yours.  Children do that.  Parent do that.   They’re not yours… now what?

Some habits have to go, they’ve been around too long and don’t serve the higher good.  They’ve become viral in there hold, perversely sacred in the act of doing them, and they give an illusion of being the right thing to do, to get from point A to point B.   They served for so long and now they don’t.  The feel good has gone to the raw repetition till who you are is the parrot caged.

 

Habits to undo

Let the weather of you change

Born again each moment

Leave a Comment

Filed under Uncategorized

THE SCOURGE


GERMANY 130

It’s more than anyone needs to know

It’s one of those vile vulgar experiences

That collides with your body in an overwhelm

A surge of illness that tears at your guts

Rips at every part of you with a toxicity

That has to find it’s way out of you now

In violent purges from mouth to ass

Again and again

 

It’s more than you wanted to hear from me

On this sunny winter morning welcome

Drained of yesterday’s tuna sandwich

Grilled with cheese and tasting like goodness

Left behind in the toilet in repeat hurl to get the

Scourge out of my body so death won’t take me

And the hideous curse of it ‘be gone to the devil’

 

It’s not the diet plan I had in mind

And in this moment I don’t ever want to eat again

A favorite comfort food gave it’s poisonous rebel

Consumed in a violent retch that shivers still

In my body and if I didn’t know better

I would never eat again, never ever.

6 Comments

Filed under Uncategorized

I like, I liked, I will like, I have liked, I would like to like. ‘Like’ me


My friend Ian, wrote this article regarding the ‘like’ button on FackBook.
http://dissociatedpress.com/2013/02/if-this-page-gets-one-million-likes-i-wont-shoot-a-kitten/
  … I have to admit, that tho’ it makes for ease in letting someone know you’ve paid attention to their post, it’s so cursory  and really gives no real feedback.  I guess I have to say, I feel it’s a lazy way to connect.

With that said, I am going to stop being lazy.  I’m going to do my best, where ever I journey in this cyberspace continuum and I find the ‘LIKE’ button, to say a few words.  LIke, (ha)  why do I like this?   Or not?  I took the time to be there reading.   Don’t I have a few words to give back?  Why… yes I do.

Those of you that visit here:  Why do you Like my blog? Or not?  Feedback is inspirational to a writer.  Thank you to those of you that do respond when you visit here, and give me a few words.  I really appreciate it.

Click below to see the conjugation of ‘Like’


http://www.verb2verbe.com/conjugation/english-verb/like.aspx

 

BE HERE NOW

BE HERE NOW

What I Like.

I like the luscious of a pear.

That first bite and all that sweetness flows into my mouth and trickles down my throat.

I like big soft snow flakes.

They glide so gently to the earth with an ease and lightness that makes me want to raise my head to the sky with an open mouth and catch them on my tongue

I like the smell of my dogs paws.

They smell of corn chips and the salsa that goes with them, lazing on beach in Mexico.

I like words

How they flow together.  How they can be deliberate, expletive, gentle, soft, hard, painful. How I feel when I’m searching for the right one and there isn’t one in the many.  And then there are more than I can choose from.

I like singing

The way sounds float from my throat and up out my mouth

I like friends

For they are my greatest reflection on my path to Joy, and wholeness.  I Love friends.

I like Love

It’s every where all the time when I let my heart be open to it.

I like to cook

I can safely say, I love to cook.  The pleasure of shopping for the right ingredients, the chopping and mixing, the spicing, and herbing, the wafting of the rich smell of it in the cooking.  Fills my house up.

I like life

Every moment is a possibility for some creative joy and to feel love.

I like gratitude

Being grateful pulls me out of negative thinking and opens me to peace.

 

 

 

 

 

 

1 Comment

Filed under Uncategorized

IMBOLC, CANDLEMAS AND BRIGID’S FIRE. haiku


Today marks, Imbolc, or Candlemas, the stirring of Spring.
http://www.schooloftheseasons.com/candlemas.html
  We are half way from Winter Solstice, to Spring Equinox. The Light gets brighter every day.  It’s a time of awakening deep in the Earth.  The belly of the Earth stirs.   What stirs in your belly?  What needs preparation for creative birthing?  What is awakening in you?

Also, this the celebration of St Brigid.

“February 1st is the feast day of St./Goddess Brigid, who began her life as a pagan goddess and ended up a Christian saint. She was a fire and fertility goddess. In her temple at Kildare, vestal virgins tended an eternal fire. On her feast day, her statue was washed in the sea (purification) and then carried in a cart through the fields surrounded by candles.”(YOu can read more on the above website, about all this)

NIGHT LIGHT

Candles burning bright

Surround the sacred stirring

Spring gives her whisper

 

In-between seasons

Celebrate awakening

Seed pushes through dark

 

Give quiet reflection

Give notice to what stirs deep

To the half way there

 

What lays deep brewing

Knows the tended fire of life

Fears no winter freeze

1 Comment

Filed under Uncategorized

WEATHER DRIVES LIKE A SCHOOL BUS


doubledecker-school-bus-2

The weather drives like a school bus

Big and yellow, formidably containing

It’s little treasures of sun and snow

All busy in flurries and sunshine chatter

On the way to educational elemental experiences

that change with every volatile bump

On the road to knowledge

There’s talk of the weather here and there

In global contrasts and agreements

Hoping to figure it all out with nature

And God and the people who want to fix it

Try to fix the weather in a school bus

Filled with every season in the storm and calm

In the capricious shift and change within us all

Like today; frigid, bitter wind, and snowy

Yesterday was sporting 55 and pouring rain

There’s days like that, minutes like that

In the seasonal thrust of living like you mean it

In the variable experience  of your expressed weather

When the forecast was sunny, hot, and humid

When the truth storms out in a tidal wave

The weather will drive you like a school bus

Whether you’re passenger, driver, or watching

It drive by from almost to the bus stop.

Whether you like it or not on any given day

You have weather choices to make inside

Let the outside take care of itself.

Leave a Comment

Filed under Uncategorized

THE CHEERLEADER AND THE SNAKE


This poem is a prompt from the lovely Jill Badonsky, my creativity coach teacher. 
http://www.themuseisin.com/

She asked that we pick an event in our lives and let it find it’s importance in a prose, poetic, sorta way.

This was a very significant event in my life.  It lead to the first most embarrassing experience of my life.  I have had a few…

This was fun to write this morning.  It just sorta fell outta me. I hope you enjoy it.

Me  1956 pink dress blk n white

CHEERLEADER AND THE SNAKE

On more Rah Rah and a sky high cheerleader jump

To Earth was my skirt round my feet in a slump

White cotton girls slip and white round collar blouse

Imprisoned am I in the brown plaid serpent of the gym house

 

300 hundred, a thousand, a million eyes all on me

Standing there in silence with my skirt  past my knees

The sixth grade basket ball game came to a screeching halt

For me in slow motion trying to figure how to get out

 

Of standing in the center of this gym floor all alone

With a million, gaggilion people staring at my little girl bones

The silence was deafening, my horror was bold

When the crowd in the bleacher stood with their cheers in a loud roll

 

All over my body the roar trembled from head to feet

The cheering and laughing closed in to my narrowing defeat

I shivered and quivered and grabbed at that snake

Quietly laying round my feet so damn sedate

 

It hissed and shimmied and gave in with relent

Only to meet at my knees as I shuffled and went

Past the crowd cross that shiny miles of gym floor

Desperate to get to that far away exit door

 

The family, the friends the entire school had come

To witness the joy of this small town’s homecoming fun

And me with my Rah and cheer a snake at my feet

Embarrassed beyond whether the boys won or got beat

 

Trembling beyond anything I had ever known

Huddled by the door with the millions and feeling alone

All eyes were on me now what was I at last to do

They’d all stopped their cheering afraid for my boo hoo

 

From somewhere deep inside me I certainly don’t know

A riotous laughter was bubbling and ready to show

Before all these people, before I had any clue

Out of my mouth loud laughter it flew

 

A little hysteria, maybe a little ingenue

It was funny, ridiculous, I had no boo hoo

The crowd joined me in laughter and wowed me  sublime

The sixth grade boys wouldn’t forgive me for taking their time

 

Selfish boys they do that cause they must

I was the center of the that homecoming fuss

My cheerleading ways they ended that day

It wasn’t the path for my bohemian way

 

Girls like me didn’t take to the cheerleading cheer

My joy was exulted in my journey for there to here

Many a Rah, a cheer, and a hoot tootie toot toot

I’m friends with that serpent that laid my skirt to my boots

1 Comment

Filed under Uncategorized

WEATHER/WHETHER ALLITERATION


DSCN8687

Aaah… well the weirdness with the weather continues.  Record high temp  in Jackson, MI. 59.  wwwwooooo.  And it’s raining hard here at almost 40.  By thursday it will be 25, snowing, with a windchill that will freeze the hairs in your nose.

Nature wins.

My personal weather report:  mellow, a rumble in the tummy, my knee is an annoyance, sippy the coffee, like the sound of rain hitting the roof, made an event page for an art show in my salon in Feb., sitting here with you, letting the weirdness of weather, knee pain, and global madness not interact with my goodness quotient.  Be Here Now.

 

Whether the weather wishes to wind you

In whirls of worry with world wide weather

Why not will the wonderful of no worry at all?

 

Change your choice and chide away confusion

Conflict as a choice causes constant self criticism

Choose confections that celebrate co-creation

 

The weather you will within your self wisdom

Can create copious continual celebratory choices

Why would we will woeful wishes when we want world wide well-being?

 

 

Leave a Comment

Filed under Uncategorized

MIDNIGHT BLOOM…a poem for Jackie


Happy Birthday Jackie.  I still hold you in my heart as family.  Joy and wonder, and peace to you..

This photo is of one of Jackie’s watercolours.  Beautiful.

 

MIDNIGHT BLOOM

MIDNIGHT BLOOM

Petal white soft to heart in the midnight hours

Blooms with pages that hold to stories told

With shared create we remember always

The tender of friendship that we hold

 

To paper we give our lyrics

In colors that bare our souls

We open pure in the art of giving

To speak from our hearts that unfold

 

Time has no time in what is always

Flowers give because they must

White soft bloom in the midnight hour

Friendship goes beyond the ash of us

 

 

2 Comments

Filed under Uncategorized

STILLNESS GIVES IT WATCH


I was asked by one of my online teachers, Christine, from Abbey of the Arts, to consider a word to dedicate to this year.  A word that might embrace a feeling I have, or need to deepen in.  A word that might challenge me, or call me out to me to pay attention to.  A word that gives play and intention to my daily practice of breathing and Being Here Now.

For me, it was about what calls to me, to ‘own’ in my daily journey, to remind me of what will bring me ‘home’.  Tho’ I do believe I am already ‘home’ at the deepest heart of myself, I don’t always have a sense of that in the busy of the world around and within me.  Living is such a distraction and all of you are so interesting.

I chose the word,  ‘Stillness’.  Maybe it chose me.  What I can tell you about the feeling that rises for me when I think of stillness, is how hard it feels to embrace it.  I have lots of wonderful idea about what ‘stillness’ is and how important it feels to be in my life.   I can think myself in and out of stillness very adeptly.

Winter stillness goes like this….  It looks like an entire forest ladened with snowy branches and hardly a track on the snow covered carpet.   It tastes like a lick laid down on the heavy snow that bears down a pine branch.   It feels like me laying down on that carpet of a gagillion snowflakes and making an angel in slow motion.  All of it rests in my thinking about it, imagining what that quiet ‘stillness’ might be.

Can I be still, undisturbed, calm, tranquil?  Good Lord, why did I pick ‘stillness’?  Choice can be changed.  I tried, sort of.     Some stubborn, tenacious part of me refused to make another choice.  Stick with that word, ‘stillness’, see where it lead you. See what comes up for 365 days of absorbing what it is or isn’t.  Maybe, find the stillness that connects me deeper to my spiritual journey.  Ok Ok… Alright already.  Stillness it is.

snow angel

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Stillness calls for my stewardship

Tells of times once remembered

In the ever beat of my heart’s desire

Longing to live in peaceful countenance

Listening deep beyond the idle chatter

Nearing my quest for home remembering

Ever present when I give myself to quietude

Simple in the ever presence of breathing

Stillness gives it watch over me

 

Leave a Comment

Filed under Uncategorized