JUST AS I AM NOW

I read a blog this morning that inspired todays poem.  It provokes the feeling for me of  when life takes a downward spiral and down looks like up. Those feeling of depressed and lost hold so much despair, the questions rise’ ‘Who am I?  Why have I come to this?  How can I crawl out of here?  Will I ever crawl out of here?’

I have not ever been buried in that much despair; sad, empty, void, questions of being enough as I am, for short periods. And, perhaps I am not the person to speak to having squirmed so deep into the dark that  the call to light doesn’t feel answered.

And… there rises in me not an answer to any of it, more a breathing sense of presence that begins to release histories clawing and the projection into the futures seduction.  Yep, many of you already know my Be Here Now practice.  I can never repeat it enough for myself cause life has a way of pulling like gravity, to the past, and making up stories of possible futures all glossy and lovely that aren’t here.

So where am I in this moment?  Here with you, fingers tapping away, readying for my dedication poem to ‘just as I am now’.

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I am right now my best self

I am all I can be in this moment

Just as I am now breathing

 

Forgiveness folds me in my arms

As I cherish the new flow of Being

By the endings of where I have been

 

I am right now my best self

I am all I can be in this moment

Just as I am now breathing

 

Refreshed I am to my re-birthing

Sacred is the joy of my unfolding

On the altar of myself I lay my wholeness

 

I am right now my best self

I am all I can be in this moment

Just as I am now breathing

 

I raise my face to the Light

Seen for the beloved that I am

Perfect in this moment

 

I am right now my best self

I am all I can be in this moment

Just as I am now breathing

 

I am the One I have been waiting for

Held to this W’holy’ path to find myself

Back to my own lightness of being

 

I flower in the rising Sun

I celebrate all I can Be

I give silence to my connection to Spirit

I embrace and love the face of my darkness

For my return to Light gives me my shining

 

I am enough as I am.