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SOFT PRESENCE


day 14… prompt from NaPoWriMo…   a ‘san san’ . a san san is a 7 line poem that repeats 3 different images and has a rhyme pattern that goes like this.  a,b,c,b,d,c,d.  New to me.  and here it goes.

nude sleeping

You are here in your soft presence.

Even in the angles and edges of you

There is comfort in how your curves find me

I settle in to the soft presence of what you do

Angles and edges are puzzle pieces that fit mine

Curves that silken what my touch sees

We become one of a magical kind

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Being silent… listening


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Chill lays a damp rest on my exposed flesh.

Morning moves with the swift flight of birds

ascending with the Sun.

What is re-born sits with ringlets  of scattered

morning white tumbling, breathing.

With those two crows that take watch in the

corners of these eyes that have seen six decades

There is a rightness to this with a hand

extended into the wet dirt, moving centuries

around in the stirring of life up again.

Burying it closer to the surface this time

where green finds her rest and scattered

blooms come again because they must

The coffee is bitter in the sweet of the must have.

Inhaling the moist morning with the waft

of lemon and citronella to ward off the bitting.

A rapid scold comes from the tree tops speaking

in a foreign tongue familiar like music without

words that give a feel, a pulse, a cadence known

without remembering why.Telling the story of the

moment with absolute clarity.

There is no wrong in the want to carve my

initials across this land.  Lay some bit  of

myself in the claim of where I’ve been and

where I am.  The safety of it is illusive, dream

like, a fugue on this Earth Path of my foot-

prints shallow and deep along the soft and

hard ways finding home.

Sitting here in the damp of this rising

morning.  Being silent, listening.

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I give myself to the music, I am the music


 

Ludovico Einaudi, Pianist.

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I give myself to the music
The tenderness fills me
rolls in caress over my body
I yearn for the home of it
with windows wide open
and the standing pine caught
to the breeze filling my inhale
Wide is the blue with the fluff
of scattered clouds that look like
starships calling me home

I didn’t want to let it give me tears
With the sprinkle of the spring rain
that can not be held back to nurture
the land finding my flower nearly ready
How many times I have bloomed in
these decades of living from tears laid
to my fertile land or when life opens
and pours down on me with such giving.
Of wishes and wants, desires, and magic
filled and not ever unfull-filling
no matter the harmony the keys tap
to this life giving rhythm

I give myself to the music to be the music
I am the dancing fingers to the ivory,
the taunt sing of the strings
the drummers heart beat
the pelt of rain on the roof
the blow of the horn in the fog
the string of bells caught to wind
the crack and split of the clouds pouring
I am the choir, the orchestra, the soloist
I give myself to the music
I am the music

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Old Love’s visitation


day 25… napowrimo

Nudes with bow #@2

Shared history in a chemistry of long ago
Decades have passed mostly whispered by
With scattered temptations and other yearnings
In flash mob moments caught in an
exuberant push for remembering connection

There will always be this love undenied
The many long agos and far away
are the coloured threads that weave us
Worn in places still weaving anew.
In the rise of chemistry that stills lingers

Old love that joys the heart and laughs
In-spite of distances and other loves
Other lives, all tumbles together for
in the memorabilia of lives well lived
while still unfolding into the next

We meet like it was yesterday
In that familiar way of us
In essence still thriving
building our tomorrows
in this today in our goodbye.

till next time

 

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Of Puppy Love.. a pantoum.. day 19


day 19… NaPoWriMo

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On Puppy Love.. a pantoum

 

In the expression lies the answers

All that sweetness carries the heart homeward

Of puppy love in the fluff and cuddle

How clever nature is to know the work of that tease

 

All that sweetness carries the heart homeward

Fills the pulses up with the flutter of desire and want

How clever nature is to know the work of that tease

The breath of it is the scent of seduction

 

Fills the pulses up with the flutter of desire and want

Swoons the mind into the charms of the beloved

The breath of it is the scent of seduction

The heart so open it has room for even more love

 

Swoons the mind into the charms of the beloved

Who can deny the pleasure of all that sweetness?

The heart so open it has room for even more love

The infancy of love cherishes the romp of the heart

 

Who can deny the pleasure of all that sweetness?

Bring on all that tender and joy

The infancy of love cherishes the romp of the heart

Wrap yourself in the gift of a heart truly open

 

Bring on all that tender and joy

Of puppy love int eh fluff and cuddle

Wrap yourself in the gift of a hear truly open

In the expression lies the answer.

 

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“She’s tossing ice cubes in my fire”


“Cold wicked breath snaking around the house looking for a place to squeeze in and whisper something chilling to my soul. She takes me off guard sometimes, but I wait and fend her off with some good old fashioned heat saved up from my soul stoking it’s self. She is tossing Ice cubes in my fire.  She’s got nothing.”   Lynn Antisdel.

Thanks Lynn.  Love this.  These are such provocative images.  I am compelled to steal a line or two: make some piece of these images mine.

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Breath to me is a spiritual practice.  I don’t think of it as wicked. Tho, when I read these lines of Lynn’s, I get it.

I am provoked to imagine whose breath that might be that would sabotage the soul’s warmth. Where did come from?  And really, was it my breath that exhaled a moment of fear and insecurity that tried “to squeeze in and whisper something chilling to my soul”?  Taking me off guard from my center of love and joy.  From the center heat of me that knows the illusion and illusiveness of my fearful saboteurs that I let sneak in with an inhale and an extended exhale.

And it is within my practice of conscious breathing into each  moment that I give awareness to my ‘center’,  my soul, that place of peace and well being that reminds me the moment is exactly right and I am perfect in it.  Letting ‘some good old fashioned heat saved up from my soul stoking it’s self” to remember that.   Giving Care to my Soul with my breath and the heat of each moment being filled with creation and possibilities.

And here is where I will ‘steal’ the last lines.

 

She is tossing ice cubes in my fire

Melting herself into a puddle

Having given her breath away

Her remains goes back to the sea

To swim again deep and try again

To find her breath she will need to surface

Raise her head and heart to the Sun

Tread the water’s till she finds her wholeness

Cause right now… ‘she’s got nothing’.

She forgot she has everything.

 

 

 

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SPACIOUSNESS … a tanka


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There is room to shift

Imagine your spaciousness

A vast Universe

Breathe it All in, fill yourself

Change the world one breath at a time

 

A vast Universe

An Infinite mystery

There is room to shift

Change the world one breath at a time

Breathe it All in, fill yourself

 

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COMPASSION… The Heart’s Compass. a haibun


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I went here the other day…

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/living-the-questions/201312/25-women-writers-share-their-best-self-compassion-tips

It reminded me of my own journey, of my own feelings about ‘self-compassion’.   I was particularly pulled in by one of the women’s breaking down of the word compassion.  Why I never noticed or bothered to look at it before must of been cause I wasn’t feeling and looking deep enough.  Now I can’t let it alone, if you know what I mean.

 

Compassion… Here is the Wiki link to all kinds of definition for compassion.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Compassion.

My simple definition is, the care and desire to help those that are having a hard time in life.  To step up, open my heart, and in some way that I can; to give, send energy, give pray, imagine, the highest good for that one in need.

 

I’ve always seen the word passion, in compassion, it reaches out and calls to me.  It’s one of those words most us hope to have and experience.  Passion.

 

Now, Compass.  That’s the one I missed.  As obvious as the word Passion, sitting right there in front of me.

Did you see it?

 

I love compasses.  I have a little collection of vintage compasses.  I have one in my car. I have one on my phone.  I look to the Sun as a compass.  I pretty much know in what direction I’m looking most of the time.  LIke now, facing South, with my back to the cold North.

 

I have a need/desire to know my direction.  I’m a road-tripper on those ‘blue highways’ of the MidWest, and believe me a compass has come in darn handy on more than one occasion.  It’s kinda like, where the heck am I going, and am I going there in the right direction.

 

YOu could say, and maybe a few of you will, I have a passion for compasses.  I have a passionate sense for direction.

 

What rises in me these last few days is the direction, the compass point I give to my passion.  There is not one direction that is likely better than the other, AND… there are situations, circumstances, moments, that listening to my heart’s compass, a point of opening that will lead me to passion’s door, where I can give of my best and highest self.  Notice, feel, make way to the care of myself and those that have lost their passion for more reasons than I can name and imagine, who have lost their way because their compass requires some adjustment, a new calibration that maybe the simple act of knowing they are loved, cared for, and not alone make all directions feel better.

 

I will always see the word ‘compass’ in compassion.  And it is my prayer that I will stand at the center of my heart’s compass and turn slowly, making sure I have an awareness of all directions. They will lead me home.

 

North, South, East, West, Here

Heart’s compass gives direction

Passion fashions love

 

 

 

 

 

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Day 3 of Gratitude. What moves the breath of Joy.


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Gratitude given moves the breath of Joy

Inhale the sweetness of the world made better

In the follow of passion made sacred by doing

Taking moments for what fills your cup

 

Inhale the sweetness of the world made better

Pouring and filling all that makes a grateful life

Taking moments for what fills your cup

Revealing what makes sacred your days

 

Pouring and filling all that makes a grateful life

Everlasting is Creation’s blissful passion

Revealing what makes sacred your days.

Glory in the Sunshine on Autumns leaves

 

Everlasting is Creation’s blissful passion

In the follow of passion made sacred by doing

Glory in the Sunshine on Autumn’s leaves

Gratitude given moves the breath of Joy.

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Into the Labyrinth


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I walked the Labyrinth under

the blaze of the Arizona sun

Walked it in sacred ritual

Some of the ash of their bodies

I took and tapped them on my flesh

over my heart.  My loved Ones

I tap…tap.. tap their ash

Rubbed them in a clockwise circle

imagining

The mix of their ash and my flesh

all pale grey with small bits of bone

I push the chards hard in to feel

seeping into my skin,

seeping into my heart

 

Pinches of them in each turn

I give to the desert dry circle

like puffs of smoke caught

in the heat  of a frail breeze

carried north to heaven

in the mingle of desert and stone

A prayer to their return back to

where we all came from beyond the

biblical ash of some said Gensis

told for the story of Adam and Eve

So much more vast in the dark

heavenly light of Creation unfolding.

 

I give a prayer in each turn

in the sprinkle of the surety

of our meeting again in the forever

As souls will do in the Infinite

Limitless connection of Oneness

Remember now my love in the

everlasting when I recognize you

both again as we mingle in the

heavens

 

 

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